Bad Habits

Habits are part of everyday life....some are in the from of traditions and others ones that you've picked up along the way in life.

Some don't harm in anyway...like twirling pencils when you are bored, or popping your neck or knuckles.

Some, however are harmful like smoking or pulling out your eyelashes and eyebrows.

Now, you wouldn't think that pulling out your hair around your eyes is such a big deal.
However, the reason why the hair is there in the first place is because it protects the eyes from little particles or other things that can irritate your eyes. (As I am sitting typing this, I am popping my knuckles...)

Anyway, I have been pulling out my eyelashes and eyebrows since I was 10 years old. (So half my life)
10 was when I was diagnosed with asthma. When I started gaining a lot more weight that I should have been and when my mom's side of the family stopped talking to me and my mom and my dad and my sister, because of something that I thought was my fault. (My aunt blamed me. Why? I don't know)

I started doing that as a stress-er...not intentionally as a stress-er, but that's what it turned into.

When I pulled out a little chunk of eyelashes, it was like the stress was leaking through the little holes where the hair roots were, and I felt better.

Now, I only pull out my lashes and eyebrows when I am stressed. And I have been stressed for a long time, over different things, because my eyelashes and eyebrows have never fully grown back. On a couple of occasions, in the summer for instance, I was able to buy mascara for the first time and use it...but then I pulled out my eyelashes and I have this mascara that I WANT to use but can't.

I'm not sure why I am always stressed. Different things, built up over the years, which caused my depression for the month of September. (Boy am I glad that's OVER)

I'm not even sure why I'm blogging about this...the Holy Spirit wanted me to blog about this.......
Wow



blogging about this is releasing some of my burden...hm...

(THANK YOU GOD!!!!)
Anyway, God bless all of you and thanks for all the prayers!
Cody Marie

Jogging Update...

Last week I failed to jog.


Part of the reason is that I'm scared. Why?
Because of my asthma.
When I was a child, I would wake up in the middle of the night, not breathing.
I have never been rushed to the hospital because of my asthma, but I'm afraid that I will.

I know exercise is VERY important for a healthy body and mind. However, I am not sure how to achieve it without sending me to the emergency room.

Any ideas? I'd love to know. Post them on here, Facebook, wherever you can catch me.


Maybe I just need to walk.
Maybe I just need to ride my bicycle.
Maybe I just need to do stretching and yoga.


What I do know for sure is that God wants me to cut ALL soda.
He gave me the BIGGEST hint this morning before I started blogging.
Yahoo! Health was one of the news stories that popped up on the page.
Here's the link...

http://health.yahoo.com/experts/drmao/20270/what-soft-drinks-are-doing-to-your-body/

(Just copy and paste)

Anyway, God bless you for reading this and please keep praying for me. Giving up soda is going to be MUCH harder than trying to stop pulling out my eyelashes and eyebrows. (That will be my next blog)


Peace and blessing for the month of November!
Cody Marie