Most people who know me, accept my moments of pure distraction and inability to focus.
When I was diagnosed in 2009 with ADHD, I had a feeling I already had it. Some of my friends growing up were diagnosed with it as younger children and I behaved very similarly to them, especially in the classroom.
As I was in school I felt as though ADHD was a curse because I couldn't do time management and I couldn't focus like my classmates.
When I was first diagnosed I was given medicine to help with the symptoms. I couldn't even last a month on them. Horrible, graphic and very realistic nightmares. I would wake up and have to convince myself they didn't actually happen.
As I grow in my Christianity and spirituality, I have come to realize that although my ADHD can be a hindrance especially when I need to focus on reading the Bible and studying, but I have come to the conclusion God is using it for good.
Since I have graduated I have done an experiment. Unconventional experiment, for sure.
I pray and talk to God everyday, but during this experiment, I chose which days I would pray to God to help me be productive and chose other days not to pray this particular prayer.
On the days in which I prayed for productivity--many things were accomplished and I had a sense of accomplishments. On the other days, where I haven't asked God to help me be productive. I have spent those days feeling like I wasted time and felt like I was letting myself and God down.
Now, I have realized that this is actually a blessing. It not only keeps my focus more on God and His good graces, but it helps me to keep relying on God for everything in my life. And it has shown me what happens when I don't.
Perspective and perception is everything. If I stayed negative about my ADHD diagnosis, I would not have learned this yet (maybe never).
My advice to you: If you are diagnosed with a disorder or disease, don't look at it negatively. Sure, that's hard, but be open to see how God can use it and how He can teach you how to live with it and not to let it become you.
Many blessings.
